And it never ends....

Just updating real quick. I just got back from the Dr. The u/s revealed I had a 3cm blood filled cyst on my ovaries, signifying possible endometriosis. Also alot of old follies(eggs) crowded in my ovaries from the PCOS. I have surgery scheduled on 9/28 to have the cyst removed and have ovarian drilling done to get the old follies out. They are also going to do a procedure where they blow out my tubes. I guess it enlarges them and clears them out. I'm going to research it a bit. And while he's in there he is going to see if I do have endo and the extent of it. He said if the endo isn't bad or I don't have it, we can start TTC the cycle after the surgery. If it's bad then we have to do treatments that last about 4 months before we start TTC again. I posted a link on endometriosis, really clarifies alot. *sigh* so lets hope and pray that it's not extensive and we can start TTC again real soon!

http://www.4women.gov/FAQ/endomet.htm

A beautiful poem...

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or because I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded.I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes, I will be a wonderful mother. ~Unknown